I Am So I Will Be

The original is sold

This is a large painting which I painted in my art studio in Orpington. I attacked the canvas with a kind of defiant frustration of trying to find myself and who I want to be, something I’ve only found later in life. 

Ryan Louder is a London-based artist known for his vivid, hallucinatory paintings inspired by real-time REM intrusion episodes a neurological phenomenon linked to his narcolepsy. Diagnosed at Guy's Hospital, this rare condition causes dream states to bleed into waking life, allowing Ryan to capture surreal visions as they unfold. His work explores the threshold between consciousness and imagination, often layering "images within images" to evoke shifting realities and altered perception.

Ryan's practice merges visual storytelling with neurodivergent insight-transforming a medical anomaly into a portal of constant creativity.